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[determinedest]

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[determinedest]

I don't know how he does it. I'm glad he does. I just don't know how he can always stay like that. Even in the worst moments.

He stills forgives me. He still believes in me and Chara.

I don't know what we did to deserve him.

[Sans probably thinks the same thing. It hurts that they can summon the thought so easily, and have so much difficulty banishing it in turn.]

Maybe we won't ever be okay. I don't know.

I don't know if I want to be okay. Do you have to want to be okay to be okay? Do you have to feel like you deserve to be okay to feel okay?

[punful]

i don't know either.

i mean. he has off days just like anyone.

but he overcomes them.

he just tells himself to be happy and positive and it works

i don't know how

[If Papyrus can do it, why can't Sans? Why can't Frisk and Chara? Why is it so, so hard to be happy and normal?]



none of us deserve him, that's for sure.





and i don't know

i don't think so

sometimes you catch yourself being happy and then remember how uh

not okay you were just a few hours ago or something

i think it just happens

maybe deserving has nothing to do with it

it sure is easy to knock yourself back down with that mindset though

isn't it

[determinedest]

[They'd asked him, once. Why is he happy all the time. Why does he get to smile and enjoy himself even though his brother only kills for him, never dies for him, never sacrifices for him. Isn't that what love is? Isn't that what love is supposed to be? Brutal, and painful, and agonizing?

They -

They do this because they love you.

They do this because they care about you.

If you weren't such a horrible child, maybe they wouldn't have to punish you for it, but they love you, you know they do, you know they - ]

Why is it so much easier to hate yourself? Is that just taking an easy way out?

I'm sorry. I know you don't know the answers any more than I do. I guess we just

We all get it. All of us. We all kind of know how it is. So if we're going to be like this, at least we're not alone, right?

That's something, isn't it?

[punful]

yeah


yeah, i guess it is.