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if wonderland can take me out of my gem, that might mean it isn't the same thing as a soul.
are they something people generally should worry about?

I guess so
If Wonderland is pulling our SOULs into the CORE I guess we should be worried.

yeah, well, again. that's if you die.
your SOUL is what makes you you, right? what happens when it gets hurt?

It depends on how.
My SOUL got hurt all the time Underground. Monsters attacked it.
It broke a lot. But I always woke up again.

It's different here.
Most things don't hurt my SOUL.

They just try to hurt my body instead.

That's not what I asked

[Touché.]

It hurts.
Your SOUL is you.
When it hurts, so do you.

actually I guess that WAS kind of a stupid question, wasn't it.
between you and me, I'm not completely sure what I'm trying to do here either.

Are you worried about your SOUL?

nah.

Then why were you asking?

i said i don't know.
things have just been weird. don't you think so too?

I guess.
I've kind of gotten used to weird.
Things are weirder if they're normal LOL

i'm so tired of having to get used to it.
I don't want to get used to it
I'm just trying to keep myself safe, and peridot, and not totally lose my mind, and it just keeps getting more complicated.

But there are nice moments too.
Some of the events aren't so bad.
And we have time in between.

that's what people say.
how do you do it?

[She asked them something like that back when she first arrived, but she was too worked up to actually want an answer. She's perhaps asked it more earnestly to other people once or twice, but she rarely bothers. The recurring question has become a part of the backdrop here, unspoken, seeping in to haunt her like an apparition no one else can see.]

I have people who make it easier.
I have a garden that lets me think about something else for a while.

none of that lets me forget I'm trapped
I know most other people don't like it here either, but it seems like everyone else can at least
put that aside

It's not exactly forgetting you're trapped.
It's like making the best of it.

[She's really not convinced those are such separate things. There's no point arguing, though, it'll just go in circles; whatever is at the heart of this issue has never been explainable.]

maybe.
I guess things just don't work like that for me.

That doesn't mean you won't find something that will.

[It's a nice thought, for whatever that's worth. She hesitates on the reply; could say maybe again, or thanks, but that wouldn't be anything different. Lapis doesn't want to talk about herself any more.

Phrasing this question is delicate. All the more because she doesn't like talking about herself, she's not inclined to make someone she likes talk about themselves if they don't want to. And she's still sensitive to the fact of how narrow her perspective is; she's only been a tiny part of Frisk's stay in Wonderland, and the (unwitting, unsanctioned) glimpse she got of their experiences before it... well. After everything else that happened, she's not about to claim understanding based on that.]

I really am glad that you can enjoy the nice moments.
wonderland doesn't seem to like letting anyone have them for too long.
is this place the worst thing that's happened to you, Frisk?

No.

[Their Mirror tried to make it so. Tried so very hard, but even then - they weren't alone. They've never been as alone here as they were then, with only a yawning hole in the grass as a possible way out. The most appealing and sole option to someone like them, who had nothing else to lose.]

I guess sometimes it's come close.
But I'm not alone anymore.
That helps.

[...]

i guess it does.
thanks for talking to me.

[Did this help?]

[Was it ever going to?]

I'm sorry.
I wish I could help more.

what?

[When a thanks is met with a sorry, something must have gone wrong, surely. Lapis squints at the message, and the right words continue to be hard to find. There are shades of Steven in here; maybe that's just what human children are like, far too good for anyone's good.]

Don't take it personally.
I
There are reasons.

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