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Peachy.

I want to give you a heads up. Don't mention me to Mick. Knowing me. Whatever.

[Peachy is basically his response for whenever he is anything but and that much should be more than obvious. There is a giant mountain of issues between them, but he doesn't even know where to start with that.

So he's practical, pragmatic. Trying.]

[Mick? Oh - no, they remember now. That just raises a lot of questions, frankly.]

It's ok if you're not ok you know.

Are you two enemies?

Ok, sure. But not going to improve things to talk about it.

No. Mick's my best friend. But he hates me right now. He's justified in it. He might get worse, if he returns to his timeline, because he has a whole mess of stuff in store for him and it's my fault.

[It's always been easy, in a way, to talk to them about things like that. Timelines. Guilt, he imagines, too.]

You think I'll get hurt if he knows you know me.

[Not so hard to draw that connection. They understand guilt. And they understand the reasons why someone might avoid someone afterwards. Like how Chara...

They're not going there.]

Can't talk about it to him?

Not the real him, he never would. We got a code. But the person he'll be forced to become, I don't think he's got a lot of taboos.

[Talk to him about it? Again, he might not have explained. But it's Frisk and they get things. They get each other, really.]

They're going to catch him and brainwash him and train him. I meant to come back for him before any of that, but I didn't. I can't tell him why I didn't and I can't try to get him to forgive me before the really bad stuff even happened to him.

[Is there a right answer here? A way to fix this for him? Do one good thing for one more person before they...

Maybe not. It's not as simple as simply dating something away. They owe him, though. They owe him this. Need to try and make things better as much as they can. Disappearing will only simplify the issue, not nullify it utterly.]

Sometimes the people you think you can't SAVE are the ones who need SAVING most.

[But manipulating him into forgiving someone before the bad stuff has even happened...that's a problem. They can understand that.]

I'm sorry. Is there anything I can do

Yeah. Never say 'sorry' to me again after what I did.

[Or period. Clearly the mistakes tend to be on his side, when it really matters.]

Mick's been looking out for me since I was... Hell. Since I was your age. I messed things up. We both made mistakes, but I'm supposed to be the one with the bigger picture. I've the plans. He's not bad. He needs people. He doesn't think he deserves them.

Don't. I forced your hand.

[They're adamant on that. The way he talks about him - he cares about him, plainly. And there's an ache, heavy and hollow in their chest, because something about this is so familiar.

So, so familiar.]

He's like you.

It was an accident, because I was careless. That's on me, Frisk.

[So very familiar.]

Look who's talking.

I attacked you. You were defending yourself.

Or is that not allowed?

[If it's not allowed for Frisk, then it's not allowed for anyone else? Is that it?]

I'm a survivor. I was always going to protect myself.

But that I killed you, that wasn't planned or necessary. That's on me. I could have kept you down for however long was needed.

I hurt people. I hurt the people I cared most about. I did it because I knew what it would make them do.

I almost made Sans kill me.

If it wasn't going to be you, it would have been someone else. That's what I was like. That's what I wanted.

It never should have been you. And I'm sorry for that.

Stop that.

I've killed a lot of people, Frisk. I'm not proud of it, but it's fact. I don't have much of a heart.

I told you that I'd kill you if you messed with my mind without asking. I told you or at least I'm telling you now, that I'd kill you again for your own sake, when I know it's what you want.

But I didn't do this on purpose and that I don't want to be forgiven. That's a mistake.

Now, stop being sorry for my sake and tell me what you want now.

And I'm telling you it's what I wanted. And it's

[It's where they're headed. Inevitably.]

I've killed people too. People I love. People I trust. I've hurt them, and it never gets easier. I don't ask to be forgiven and I'm forgiven anyway.

I forgive you.

Sorry, kid. Don't forgive myself.

I know that song already. Sing me a new one.

What do you want NOW?

Edited 2016-12-21 04:05 (UTC)

Nothing.

[It's not a lie. What they want, specifically, is nothing. To be buried in nothing. To bury themself in it, and finally, at long last -

Sleep.]

You don't have to forgive you. Lots of people I know don't forgive themselves.

But I'm going to forgive you anyway.

Not surprising, you got a lot lower standards for everyone else than you do for yourself.

[Look who's talking indeed.]

Literal nothing?

[He wouldn't ask like this. But it's them.]

LOL! What does that even mean

[Maybe they're overplaying their misdirection. Either way, there's not much likelihood Chara would tell other people that he cares about Frisk...right? As far as Chara's concerned...

Well, they don't know what Chara's concerns are. Anymore.]

I've been told I have zero standards.

Then how come you fail them?

[He doesn't know the story here, but it's not as if he has a right to be told. That won't keep him from asking.]

That's not the same.

Someone with a special power has a responsibility to do the right thing.

The standards you have for yourself are impossible to meet. Your special power is a special way of screwing you over.

People are not variables I get to adjust for Fun. I am not above consequences.

I can't ever forget that.

Yeah.

You see any danger of you forgetting that, kid, because I don't.

I did forget. Or I ignored it. That's why I have to be careful.

[Didn't let someone say "no." Hold their hand, ask for a hug, say they're wrong. They're wrong, Frisk is right, Frisk knows what you want better than you do. They know best for everyone.

Don't they.]

I knocked my best friend out. I called him stupid. I told him that I call the shots.

He got taken because of that. I got no excuse, I got no special power, I'm just a controlling dick. Thought I knew best for him and neglected to take into account what he wanted.

Once he started to move on from it and maybe forgave me, guess what? I knocked him out again. Right now I'm deciding to keep the future for him, because I figure I know his mind better than anyone and I want to decide what he has to deal with when.

[Damn, it's looking bad.]

What did you do?

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